Breaking Free by Aluna

BREAKING FREE
by Aluna Joy Yaxk’in

If you bring forth what is within you, what is within you will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what is within you will destroy you. The Gospel of St Thomas - Gnostic Gospels

Deep inside each of us is a little hidden place, a place of purity that we still have not shared with the outside world. For some it might appear as a little box with a lock and key. For others it might appear as wings you choose not to open fully. We know what is inside these places. It is where we conceal the best parts of ourselves. It is filled with untouched light, wisdom and pure grace and innocence. It is where we hide the teacher, the healer, and even the master. On occasion, during spiritual openings, we become sharply aware of this place. It is at these times that spirit is calling us, giving us an opportunity to break free from the prison of limitations in which we have placed ourselves.

Many of us have not exposed this special place to the world in this lifetime or even through eons of lifetimes. We hide because we do not feel the world is a safe place to reveal such private places. We have been safeguarding this light for so long, protecting it from contamination, saving it for some special time. Many times if we are aware of this special place, we choose not to acknowledge it, as it is painful to realize the distance between how we are living and who we truly are. So we block it from our minds, busying ourselves with related pursuits and peripheral distractions. Some of us are even afraid of the power in this place. In past lives we may have misused this light and power. But the biggest reason we hide this special place is because we will be naked and vulnerable to the world, and this scares us to our very core.

Maybe in ages past it was appropriate to hide away while Earth and humanity evolved. But times have changed. It is time to shine our light, our truth, with the world. The fact is, that hiding away our God given gifts is exactly what is keeping us from our destiny and our freedom from limitation. Hiding away is what is keeping us from peace and harmony and true living.

What if I told you that the world will never be a safe place. So quit waiting. The fact is, until you release your gifts into the world, the world will never reflect the safe place you have been waiting for! You see, the creative force of the universe is non-judgemental and reflects back exactly what you share with the world. So if we only share part of ourselves, we will only manifest part of our destiny; the rest will be illusion. If we break free from our fears and release our complete special light, wisdom and love, the universe will surround us with the same. This means the quality of life we experience will equally reflect the quality of light which we share. The experiences, people and events in our lives will expand, become richer and offer more opportunities. The more we expose our true selves, the more the universe reflects this perfection back to us. If we want to manifest our life’s destiny, we must first put ourselves on the edge, break free and give that which is inside of us. Understand that this takes courage and a willingness to bare our soul.

I was sitting on a plane heading for Florida to speak at the Universal Lightworkers Conference this past November. As always, I was working over, or maybe I should say, sweating over, my notes and slide presentation. As any honest conference presenter will tell you, public speaking is very confronting, even for the well-seasoned speaker. Most feel a deep responsibility to share something of benefit to those who come to hear you speak.

As I looked over my notes, a soft voice inside of me said, “Toss the notes - don’t use the slides.” What! Don’t use my notes and program I had spent so much time on. Again I heard inside, “Share your heart . . . your passion. Share what you hide inside of you.” At this point the meltdown began and the panic set in full force. In spite of the fear I was feeling, I knew spirit was giving me an opportunity to expand myself. I also knew that what I decided in the next few days would reflect to the Great Creator what I wanted in my life. If I didn’t take this opportunity, the Creator would see I did not want opportunities for growth. The frightening dilemma was that this opening was being orchestrated in front of hundreds of people at a conference. Let’s face it . . . I was out of my comfort zone. This was not the safe place I was looking for to crack open the untouched depths on my soul!

Frantically, I began to search for a way out of this dilemma. Maybe there was a easier way, a safer way to do this. With no exit door in sight, I began to search for the reason why I was so afraid. And there it was, that little place inside of me. The place I had worked long and hard to break free. This is what spirit wanted me to release. And in this moment I had no clue how the open the door to release myself.

Once I arrived in Florida, I knew I was in for a life-transforming weekend. Deep inside myself I could feel my soul wanting this more than anything I wanted in a long time. I didn’t want to lose this opportunity to a fear of revealing myself. So at a Thursday night conference speaker meeting I shared my situation. I was surrounded by some of the most positive and profound spiritual speakers of this time . . Gregg Braden, Jon Marc Hammer, James Twyman, Ken Page and especially the masterful conference organizers Karen Schieb and Robin Rose . . . to name only a few. This in itself was scary. I knew once I shared this with them, I knew there would be no retreating back inside to hide. I purposely put myself on the edge. These meetings are used to set the tone for the conference and to anchor intentions. So I shared my intentions and revealed my deep desire to break free and “wing it” during my presentation. This is it, I thought . . . once I reveal my frailties to these folks, I’ll never be invited back to this conference. This fear nagged me over and over.

What happened next was the most beautiful. . . yet terrifying experience I have had in recent years. Not only did I receive the impassioned support of the speakers, but found that I had set the tone for the conference. Oh wow. Now I am really going to have to do this. I had two days to be tortured by my fears before I had the stage on Sunday morning to bear my soul. In these two days the speakers would say, “I can hardly wait to hear you speak.” “I know I am going to learn things from you this weekend.” “You can do this.” Their support became awesome pressure, like a cosmic crowbar, to break loose what was inside of me. Because of my sharing, I had taken the first step in breaking free. The universe had heard my call and was supplying the force needed to get the job done. There was no going back now. The speakers wouldn’t let me, nor would the universe.

When Sunday morning came and I was called on stage, the audience had been primed by the previous speakers for what I was about to do. It was the most real moment I had ever experienced with 400 people simultaneously. It didn’t matter what I did or what I said. What was important was my willingness and absolute dedication to be free and fully present and share my heart. I watched my sharing ricochet through our the crowd and inspire everyone to do the same. I knew I had changed my destiny and was taking a first major step in breaking free. I became more of my natural myself.

After my soul baring experience, I thought that the door might close again. It hasn’t. The ripples inside are radiating out further and further, opening other doors I had forgotten about. I feel more happy, free and clear than I have in a long time. The gratefulness growing inside of me is overwhelming. I am filled with love for all those around me and I am GRATEFUL to be ALIVE!

Years ago when I first touched this place inside, I used to feel that if I shared it, I would destroy the Earth because it was so powerful. Now I feel if I don’t share it I could destroy the Earth. We are all one, and what I experience in life, you also experience. How you live also effects me. The reverse is true. If I hold back, everyone around me will hold back. I know we would not want to be responsible for holding back someone’s spiritual growth.

I do not share this with you to say I am uniquely special. I am no different than you. We are all incredible beings of light. And I know that if an opportunity to break free has come for me, it has also come for you. So right here . . . right now . . . I challenge you to break free! What are you waiting for? If I can do it, YOU CAN TO. Challenge yourself and put yourself in the edge and in the position where there is no turning back. Race forward, go for it. We have nothing to loose.

I also share this story because I never want to retreat back to that cramped little place inside of myself ever again. And I am hoping that all of you out there will never let me hide again. Let us commit to help each and everyone of us to break free once and for all.

Encourage your friends and love yourself enough to really let your light shine. It is the way to all your dreams! The key to opening the door to the best, lightest, most abundant life experience is your desire to do so and most of all taking that first step. You all know what the next big step is for you . . . Come on, you can do it . . . You are READY!

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